My hopes are dashed,
I’ve shattered dreams,
All because of
The scene I’ve seen.
You and him,
Hand in hand,
Looking happy,
Like Disneyland.
I couldn’t help
But be upset.
I hoped you’d be
One I’d get.
I thought too soon.
It’s not to be.
My simple crush
Has done crushed me.
Seven Men from Now is a very personal movie for me. My dad was a big Randolph Scott fan and that was his absolute favorite Randolph Scott movie. He talked about it for years, but hadn’t seen it in probably 30 or 40 years by the time it came out on DVD. It was never available to rent or buy and was never on TV.
It finally came out a few years ago and I got him a copy for Father’s Day the year before he died. By the time we were able to watch it together he couldn’t stay focused for more than 30 minutes at a time, but after hearing about it for so long it was worth it to finally be able to watch it with him. It’s a great movie. After he died, my mom gave the movie to me and I watch it on occasions when I get to missing him. I don’t bother recommending it to people. I don’t want to hear about how “boring” or “stupid” or “old” it is, or about how they “hate westerns”. I’d rather not have that shared experience sullied by people with poor taste.
I’m glad you took your dog;
That ugly, ankle-biting pest.
Now that he is gone
I just might get some rest.
His yapping drove me CRAZY,
As your nagging ALSO did.
I was blessed by God Almighty
That we never had a kid.
He would have been a spoiled brat
As YOU most surely were.
I try to remember the good times,
But my memory is a blur.
I do remember your bras
And pantyhose everywhere,
And all the smelly creams
To remove your mustache hair.
ALWAYS watching YOUR shows
And NEVER watching MINE
Was a constant irritation,
But you called it “Quality time”!
You insisted I wax my chest,
Unfortunately I obeyed.
“You’d do it if you loved me!”
Was the argument you made.
The hair plugs and teeth bleaching
You “encouraged” me to do
Thankfully went UNdone,
Despite protests from you.
You were never, ever satisfied
With ANYTHING I did.
You had the cheery disposition
Of an angry, starving squid.
You expected me to clean
As you dirtied up the place,
And didn’t lift a finger,
While Cheetos filled your face.
Sex with you was unpleasant.
You were BOSSY in the sack.
MORE than once I thought that
I might fake a heart attack.
You were rude to all my friends
And dismissive to my mom.
You were a horrible, terrible cook
And I’m so happy that you’re gone.
Surrounded by boxes
Of things from our past;
I never did think that
We never would last.
No one ever dreams
Of a short life together,
But time affects love
Like wind does a feather.
Love changes directions;
It rises and falls.
There are moderate breezes
And terrible squalls.
I’ll never forget
All the good times we had.
Unfortunately I’ll never
Forget all the bad.
On our last day together
There’s not much to say,
So neither of us says it
Before we drive away.
Incredible loss can’t be measured
By any of the standard mean,
But by the number of teardrops
And heartbreaks that are seldom seen.
When life’s bright flame is extinguished,
Its warmth is immediately gone.
Its chill is felt most by the closest;
Its darkness never ended by dawn.
Though they can never return,
Life must indeed continue.
Like a show that must go on
With the world around us its venue.
No words can assuage the loss.
No heart can completely heal.
There is only comfort in time,
But it’s a slowly turning wheel.
Ebony goddess,
You towered over me.
The most beautiful smile
That I ever did see.
Your full and lush lips
Were the softest I’ve kissed.
Your large, wondrous breasts
Will forever be missed.
Your skin was so perfect;
A mahogany dream.
In ecstasy you’d cry out
And wildly scream.
You slipped through my fingers;
Not forgotten, but gone.
Yet our moments together
Live on and on.
I’ve loved you since you were 12,
That’s now been 25 years.
But since I was never your choice,
I’ve missed all your laughing and tears.
The best thing you ever considered me,
Was a friend, but not very close.
I don’t know if I was too dorky,
Too ugly, or maybe too gross.
I only know that I loved you,
As much as any love unrequited.
I loved your smile, and I loved your hair,
And how you not merely walked, but glided.
These 25 years have passed quickly.
Although your face shows not a sign.
To my face, the years weren’t so friendly,
Every minute ticked by shows on mine.
You’re as beautiful and gorgeous as ever.
You’re a wonderful mom, I can see.
And I hope your life’s always happy,
Even if it’s never with me.
